i won't grow up

Don't you wish sometimes that you could freeze time or atleast make it go by slower? Well, I have what I call "Peter Pan Syndrome." It's where you refuse to grow up and live in a dream world where you can always stay a child. As kids, then teenagers we are in a constant desire to be treated like adults and do all these grown up things, but do we really know what we're asking for?


Like my mom says, " You want all the benefits of being an adult with none of the responsibility." I remember back in the day when all I had to worry about was tracing letters, coloring in the lines, and taking turns when it came to playing with toys. Life was simple. Everyday was an adventure and you never knew what to expect. As a child you can use your imagination and adults will applause you for being so creative. You see a world full of color.


Do you know what happens when you become an adult? The world becomes black and white. When using your imagination you're told to live in "the real world" and grow up. You need to study something that will help you get a stable job. "Hey, maybe you should major in business and accounting." Growing up is scary. I miss how simple life used to be. Soon enough I will have to worry about how the market is to buy a house.


If you asked me to descirbe the life of an adult in one word I would say, "Busy." What is wrong with spending time to stop and smell the roses? Smelling roses doesn't do anything to further our agendas and check that box on our To Do lists. Time flies when you're doing something constantly.


Even as Christians we can get so wound up in "doing stuff." We no longer have that child-like innocense of our youth nor the time to just sit around and talk to God. No, we're adults and have the maturity to solve our own problems. We use logic instead of imagination. How many times do we get sick and our first instinct is to schedule an appointment with the doctor? A child would ask, " If God can do miracles could He take my cold away?" Why don't we ask God to help us in the simple things like the common cold? It's because we're adults. You need to assume responsibility for everything. Grow up.


What happened to us? We grew up. We sucked the color out of the vibrant, exciting world that God created. We no longer really trust in God or let Him in our imagination. Jesus said it simply. We are to love God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength. However, we choose to complicate things with daily mundane tasks that we must do so that we can have a stable lifestyle.


God told me to become an artist. Do you know how many people ask me how I'm going to support myself with that "profession"? Or how many people say that drawing is "nice" but this is "the real world"? I miss being a child, when the possibilities are endless. I think adults really got the short end of the stick. Don't sell out or let life fly past you. Don't grow up.