on the road again

Days like these I feel as though I had A.D.D. My mind is going 100 mph and it's difficult to stay in the same lane. I lean towards the left and ride on the line then I lean on the right and do the same. How do you stay in the center? If only in life we had cruise control.

So here I am, driving down the road of life. Sometimes I feel like a weary traveler. I've come a long way and I want to just reach my destination already. Isn't there a point when it gets easy? When will the attacks from Satan cease?

I mean I have to realize that in Christ there is victory. Why is the devil so stupid? I mean he knows the Bible back and forth. Doesn't he know that what he's doing is all in vain? So I am on the winning side. I am on the right lane. But why does the devil need to constantly bombard me with attacks and temptations. There is no use.

I have eternal life. There is nothing he can do to take that away from me. Yet, he continuously tries to make me veer off my lane. I swerve and speed and I feel as though the car has a mind of its own.

Aren't I getting any closer to my destination? What is my destination? I am a weary traveler seeking direction. I have come so far. God has answered so many of my questions, but with every answer come even more questions.

God carries me through each step and I know He is faithful in guiding me. But that's it. I only see the step in front of me, but down the road is clouded with the unknown. There will always be the unknown. God can give me revelations, but I will never know the final outcome.

I suppose that is for the best. Because although I am weary I do love to sight see. The road of life is unexpected. You never know when there'll be traffic, or an accident, or a smooth, open road. Sometimes I get discouraged with the things and thoughts I face each day, but what is life without surprises?

I know that one day I will reach my destination, but until that day I can be content in the things I do have. I can find happiness and encouragement in the things I see along the way. I just need to stay focused and continue driving down the lane of life. And I'll be sure to stay within His speed limits.